I had an existential crisis last night.
One of the main topics the news focuses on nowadays is the environment, and yes, we’re going to completely forget about the election, Brexit, and everything to do with subjects relating to England and America specifically. There are stories on how we’re hurting the environment, how we can do more to help the environment, and how the environment is fucked.…
Putting the person back in personal care.
Over the years I’ve had a number of different treatments, some superficial – nails, eyebrows, and some cosmetic – Dermapen, and laser hair removal. However, I got rather ill in late 2017, and since then my beauty routine has changed out of necessity. I can’t to do a lot of the things are used to be able to and that…
Relearning emotional boundaries as an adult.
Between online resources, books, and my new therapist I have – over the past few years, come to realise that I’ve been a boundary stomper. It has never been intentional, and it is completely on me, but I want to dive into the reasons why. I want to talk about it because we don’t get taught about boundaries in school…
Spam bot or sex worker?
It’s been a week a bit since I got booted from an affiliate due to *insert reason they give here*, and I was going to leave the whole affiliate issue lie with the thread I posted on Twitter. I really wanted to leave it there because I have reviews to post, clips to upload, and boobs to edit (*gasp* a…
Dear Doctor: When you don’t know what to do.
A doctor is a human being, and therefore fallible - as are all humans. However, you wouldn’t think they are by their attitudes - well some of them. Normally, or at least it’s normally in my experience, when a doctor doesn’t know what to do they treat an undiagnosed complicated case like a stain on their career, and quite frankly…
Breaking My taboo: Pooping
Society has so many taboos. I don’t know if it’s just an English thing, but we have so many – sex, blood, periods, sex work, death … the list goes on. People think that we are overcoming the societal taboos, but we’re not. If we were I wouldn’t have withheld a bunch of post on bowels, and toilet habits –…
My Nexplanon Implant Story: The Procedure
I am nervous. In a little under an hour I will be getting the Nexplanon implant. I am not nervous about getting the implant. After all, I’ve been through it all twice before, and I know the procedure. I’m nervous about the potential effects of the implant. I’ve been hormone free for a little over three years, and if I…
My menstrual cycle controls my life.
My menstrual cycle controls my life. This post was written a few weeks ago, but is still completely relevant. I know I’ve written something on this topic before, but it’s cathartic to write about it. Currently, I’m home alone. My partner is away for the night, and I’ve a friend on the train who’s coming to stay with me (and…
I’m scared to masturbate.
First off, whilst there was a period of body enforced orgasm denial, I'm happy to report it's at an end! Since my last post, my body cooperated enough to have sex, and 2 blissful orgasms. Unsurprisingly, I also spent the rest of the day recovering. Now, let's dive into the apparent mental orgasm denial I've gotten myself into.Here's the thing,…
I’m horny, but my body won’t let me masturbate.
“I want to climb him like a tree.” I’ve heard that expression so often, but I am feeling it today. I want to climb my partner, kiss him, touch him, explore his skin. I’m worried that if I don’t grope him, or do something to sate the arousal, I might combust from the sheer intensity of it.
Respect our boundaries, pay our fees. Don’t ask us to watch you wank for free.
My time is not free. A sentiment all freelancers, bloggers, and self-employed people feel deeply. It’s deeply ingrained that time is money, and when you live by that saying it’s really hard to switch off.As such, you’d expect that those in a similar position to yourself - a freelancer, self-employed person, or sex blogger, would understand that whilst you should…
We keep missing each other.
Our libidos don't often match up. Sometimes he's horny, and I'm not in the mood, or my body is protesting - the joys of chronic illness. Sometimes I'm horny, and he's exhausted, busy, or isn't in the right headspace.
Relearning how to masturbate
Just before falling from the precipice of orgasm there’s a single minded focus that comes from the build up of pleasure that is both delightful, and frantic. The holding of breath, tensing of muscles, and urgency of movement is because your body takes over, whilst the mind shuts down. The pleasure demands to be fulfilled through release.
My uterus controls my life, but my medication makes the doctors listen.
My uterus owns me. It has free rein over my body without the regulatory body of doctor implanted hormones. Though, that’s not for the lack of trying. During the run up to my period I get severe PMS, to the point where my anxiety is up, and I'm forever paranoid, and worried about my partner and myself leaving the house.…
Keep Calm, and Carry On
Sometimes, I feel rather British. Granted, this feeling is intensified as I've just watched four episodes of The Crown, but part of me feels like a stiff upper lip is needed to get through life. It's how I've dealt with most things, but apparently that's called compartmentalisation, and isn't healthy for you. Alongside all my usual health concerns, slight hesitancy…
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